Mere Humnafas, My Sorrow. Urdu lyrics of Poet Shakeel Badhayuni. Singer, Begum Akhtar. Eichmann in Jerusalem and the Hungarian testimonial. The trial of the past, 20th century.

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Mere Humnafas Mere Humnawa Mujhe Dhosth Ban Ke Dhagha Na Dhe,Main Hoon Dhard-e-Ishq Se Jaan-balab, Mujhe Zindagi Ki Dhua Na Dhe Mere Humnafas. Mere Dhaagh-e-Dhil Se Hai Raushni, Isi Raushni Se Hai Zindagi-e Mujhe Darr Hai Aae Mere Chaaragar, Yeh Charaag Thu Hi Bujha Na Dhe, Mujhe Chhorh Dhe Mere Haal Par, Thera Kya Bharosa Hai Chaaragar, Yeh Theri Nawazish-e-Mukhthazrr Mera Dhardh Aur Barda Na Dhe. Kabhi Jaam Labh Se Laga Liya Kabhi Muskurake Hata Dhiya, Theri Ched Chard Aeysa Kiya Meri Thashnagi Ko Barha Na Dhe.  Mera Azm Ithna Baland Hai, Ke Paraaye Sholon Ka Darr Nahin, Mujhe Khauf Aathish-e-Gul Se Hai, Yeh Kahinn Chaman Ko Jala Na Dhe, Mere Humnafas Mere Humnawa, Vo Uthe Haain Leke Humosobu Arrey O Shakeel Kahaan Hai Thuu. Thera Jaam Lene Ko Basm Maain Koi Aur Haath Bardha Na Dhe.  Do not become Lord and then betray faith. My life hurts as love left us.  Thus, do not bless me with more life.  My burden is intolerable, how can it be otherwise when I am in the kingdom of hell?  When you pierce into my eyes you see hatred, yet they are the eternal witnesses of God, Do not then call me to you so that these are destroyed as well. Leave me to my condition because how in the world can I trust you? My face is one that I cannot show to the world yet you allowed for this to be shown to everyone. Christlike you pour wine into my mouth only to take it away again. I am going to pretend that this is not my story or my life because how can it be so evil when I have served you? The fire of longing so bright in me showers the earth and permeates all beings. I am afraid that you will even take that away. As they gather to slaughter, where were you Shakeel? Beware of harm, evil.  Life is like a mirage. Keep from wanting more.

Eichmann replies translated into English.  But I know what I said sounded unbelievable and the documents prove that I did take part in drawing time tables but only as aiding and assisting, … At the beginning all I had to do report and hand on information to my superiors and I was not in touch with or with current events in the Hungarian gendarmerie, all I had to do was almost unbelievable but it was a state of facts. … There was very little to do… The guards, including 15 to 20 men including the typists. My typists had nothing to do..The enterprises had to be carried out by the Hungarian gendarmerie and they were implemented, the number of officers and my subordinates and they were doing my work, and the German counter espionage followed the same methods, had to deal with deportation and I sent one of my men to find out and examine what can be offered instead of the 100,000 Jews who were to permitted to immigrate. When these men came back and I kept on searching for ways and I had to come up with separate plans to present to my superiors and I decided I had to do something…original cause for these deaths they were executed, the Jewish elders council state that course that the ban on correspondence be a little relaxed, this ban was responsible for the death sentences, I did not consider my competence and deal with this application, dated 1942, where the relaxation of the ban as a matter of principle.. the security of police could not overlook my argument and shows clearly that I referred the matter to someone else…

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